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Huck! this year the chinese new year is not fun at all, ya sure we got a lot more holidays than the past years but that is the only reson that am glad that i can rest more, 2 days never step out of the house wow! that was not like me huh? why get so lazy during chinese new year? or is it cos the fact that am broke? maybe haha!=p Maybe i should let justin go already, since he no longer love me. the only rerson that kept us still seeing each other once a week is cos of the stuff, am not proud to say it but is the truth anyway, he does not care much about me he just gets what he wanted and i know it just that i don't like to admit it, in some way i still want him and i know is bad enough , HALLO! someone is calling me to wake up my danm stupidness but i ignored it. Am not the old Mary that your used to know, i had changed a lot since justin come in to my life, all thanks to kevin huh? i had heard people saying and talk about sex and some people said is a good stuff others said is a bad stuff, but to me sex itself is a harmless thing, just that how you do it and see it, sure when you do it with your lover you feels great and both of your enjoys to the top, but never cross the line, too much of it will leds to great deanger like the girl will finally get pregrant, you think that by using a comdom will be safe? HALLO! is only 99.9% as the package wrote, when i do it with justin i every thought if one day i get pregant with his baby how? he said that i go and get rid but i told him no, i want have he baby and than i thought by than we will be together forever that he can't leave me but forget it, that is madness , he is only 18 and am 21, i think even if we did get together cos of the baby i maybe looking after him instead of him looking after me, cos he is still young and immatured! i shall stop from now on, i know i will miss him so much after tell him that i don't want to do it with him anymore but is for my own good, unless he learnt how to treat and cherash a girl better with love. for some of your will be shocked after reading this post but don't be, if i dare to do it, i will dare to write them down and share cos i am not scared =) Friday, February 12, 2010 Is about you not the things that we do, after the break up i still love you, you said that am not your cup of tea you love the other girl alot, but who cares? kevin thinks that am mad and crazy that till today i still love you, but who cares? not as if you will take me back but who knows. I know in someways we still need each other, and is more like you needed me more so why can't we back together? i miss the happy moments that we had and only we could do them again, sleeping over at your house talk to you see you use my laptop hug you and kiss you, but now is all in the past, you break up with me and your mum come back from overseas=( Justin, i shoud say you are the 1st guy who made me so crazy for you, do stupid and crazy things all the time out of love. I miss the way you hug me when i cry infront of you, you used to call me a baby cos i so easily cry and still tease me if i want milk or not LOL when we share a sit to use laptop you tease me say am fat cos i took most of the speace and let you sit till the edge LOL We both love to listen music and sometimes you sing, when you sing i will follow, i know our singing sucks but we don't care....Hais shall not say and think anymore the more i say and think the more i feel sad, bye and goodnight! Happy CNY ppl! |
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